Chicago did not go as well as I had expected. I had these visions of me crossing the finish line in under 3:40, being able to call home and tell my dad about what I accomplished, meeting up with friends after the race for grub, drinks and to celebrate the goal I had reached; to qualify for Boston.
None of this happened. Let take that back, I did phone my dad to tell him how I finished but none of the other things took place.
Guess I should back up and start from the beginning.
Sunday morning I woke up at 4:30am, still sick. In fact, I felt worst. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, got dressed and headed downstairs to make my pre-race meal; wheat bagel with creamy peanut butter and a bottle of water. We were in the car and on our way by 5:15am. Traffic was not bad at all. My brother in-law, Tommy, quickly found a parking lot about 6 blocks from Grant Park. I grabbed what I needed while my brother in-law and Chris took the bikes off the bike rack. They had brought along bikes so they could ride from each mile marker through out the race to watch me. We headed up the street where I was able to go in to the corral area and they headed off to meet up with Tommy's old boss. He had 2 access passes along with volunteer hats, shirts and jackets. They were to work the start line but didn't know what they would be doing.
I made my way to the port-a-potty's and over to a tree to sit under near my start corral. I did some stretching, people watched and went over my race strategy in my head. I decided I better try using the bathroom on last time and waited in a LONG line. I went and got into my corral. As I was walking I heard "Steph" and looked up to see Chris and Tommy. Tommy took a quick shot of me and Chris.
(Chris and I pre-race)
They wished me luck and were off to work the start line. They had to stand in front and make sure none of the elite runners crossed the line prior to the start. Chris was able to take a couple quick photos before having to move out of the way.
(The Elites!!)
Anyway....back to my story. :0)
I hung by the 3:40 pace group with plans of staying with them for the entire marathon. That didn't last too long. I was trying so hard just to stay with them during the first 2 miles. Not because I couldn't keep up but because of all the runners that kept pushing me out of their way or running into me! It was so frustrating. So since I thought I was feeling good, I just took off on my own. I knew the race was going to be tough from the start. My throat hurt, my nose burned and my legs were heavy. But I was ahead of the 3:40 group so I figured I was good! I tried to take in the crowd support. Wow, that crowd support is like nothing I've ever seen at a race. I kept telling myself to look around, half fun, enjoy the scenery, anything to take my mind off my time and what I was there to do.
Well, by mile 11, I knew it wasn't going to happen. The heat and sunshine were really starting to get to me. I had my fuel belt with hammer heed & hammer gel, but stopped at every water stop. I felt dehydrated and couldn't get enough water. I saw Chris & Tommy at mile 14 and changed one of my empty heed bottles for a full one.
(at mile 14)
Chris asked how I was feeling and as much I would have loved to say "great", I told him "awful" and kept on running. Between 14 and 16, I lost it. I am not sure if I was mentally letting the heat get to me or what happened. Chris and Tommy we are the 16 mile marker. And thank god they were.
(at mile 16)
I had to pee so bad and was some what delirious. I went off course straight into an empty parking lot. Chris grabbed me, got me back on course and ran with me for about a block as I whined about having to pee really bad. He told me to just go, that I could do it. So now, not only am I hot, but I now stink like urine because when he said go, I went. in my pants. At this point I am not understanding what is going on. I mentally was breaking down far sooner then I did last year when I ran Detroit. And it seemed to last much longer. I continued to count down the miles. I made sure to keep hydrating and ran through every mister/hose on the course. I saw so many runners getting medical attention and was lucky that I was not one of them. I was able to keep running so I used that as a motivator.
The last 10 or so miles were a blur. People around me yelling "you're almost there", "only 6 more miles to go", etc... I had been passed by the 3:40 group. I can't tell you where. It happened somewhere in those last 10 miles since I was still ahead of them at mile 16. even after the 'parking lot' incident.
I gave it that final push and seeing the signs "800m to go" "400m to go" "200m to go" were such an awesome site. I was so ready to be done with this marathon! I tried to push hard up the bridge, made the left hand turn and was heading for the finish line. I heard my name, looked up and there in the bleachers were Chris and Tommy. I tried to smile but could only shake my head and kept on going.
I crossed the finish line at 3:44:00. 4 minutes off my goal. I was happy though. Not only did I finish with a PR, but I ran this as hard as I could. I was sick from the start, so hoping for a BQ was a little ambitious. I couldn't help think of the 'what ifs'. what if it was cooler? what if I had stayed with the pace group? What if I wasn't sick that day? what if I had chosen to take medicine that morning versus not taking anything at all? Those what ifs do not bother me. If anything, it has made me even more excited to tackle my next marathon.
I am looking forward to the Bayshore Marathon on May 28, 2011! Hoping that will be my BQ course!
Sorry you didn't make your BQ goal, but congrats on a great PR! Definitely something to be proud of! :-)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on a courageous race and a new marathon PR! Sounds like you overcame a lot to run as well as you did. Love the pics too.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your new PR! I'm sure you'll BQ next time around. This was a pretty rough race for you with the hot weather on top of being sick, not exactly ideal circumstances.
ReplyDeleteI can completely relate to your experience during this race. So many of the things you said remind me of my first marathon. Basically, everything just fell apart on me.
Good luck at Bayshore!
-Brit
Great recap. You totally have Boston by the balls at your next marathon! Go get it girl!
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You did great! The stars will align someday and you'll smash through that BQ time. :-)
ReplyDeleteAwww the hell with what if Steph, you ran your heart out and on that day you couldn't ask for more than that.
ReplyDeleteHonestly I had a lot of friends shooting for goals that ended up being more like 45-50 mins off (oh and that was me too :-). You lost 4 stinking minutes on a craptastic day for a marathon. I'm so proud of you and the grit you showed. You will always remember what you went through and it will be your fuel to know you can push through anything for your next race. I know the sting of missing the BQ is hard, but dang it the moment you see that clock click 3:3X all will be forgotten and your hard work will have been worth it.
P.S. A lot of people are questioning their mental game, and I am pretty sure that means it wasn't mental but weather. Lady it freaking sucked and seeing the runners on the side of the road proved that to me.
I forgot something CONGRATS LADY!!!!!! You deserve to be proud of your grit.
ReplyDeleteIt was a hard race! Congrats on your PR!! BQ is definitely right there!
ReplyDeleteThank you all for your wonderful comments!!
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CONGRATS TO YOU!!!! I spectated the race and my heart went out to everyone that was running! Those were brutal conditions and I admire all who stuck it through and finished. I hope you are feeling better, recovered and excited about your PR!!!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your PR and on a very gutsy race too!! I too, was going for a 3:40 in Chicago on Sunday and tried to keep the 3:40 group within sight as long as possible (we were probably running near each other and didnt know it, lol) but the heat got to me and I felt lucky to still eek out a 3:43.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your BQ attempt next May-here's hoping you will join me in Beantown in 2012 (one advantage to aging up for me, LOL!)
BTW-I got that white Nike shirt too at the expo!! I loved the colors and all the neighborhoods on the back. I was quite disappointed with the finisher gear though...